Temporarily Closed for Spiritual Maintenance

It has been a while since Ive written so the topic that is on my mind today is "temporarily closed for spiritual maintenance". It is perfectly okay to "check out" every now and then. I want each of you to take a moment to close your eyes...inhale and exhale. Listen to your body. What is it telling you? Try not to fight whatever comes up for you and instead accept it regardless of how it looks. Are you bearing the weight of a load too heavy to carry? Yea. THAT! What ever 'IT' is, it could be one thing that comes up or it could be many, the important thing is that something came up. You are now in the beginning stages of getting to know yourself and learning to listen to YOU. Now I want you to take whatever came up for you and name or label it. For example, I have stretched myself too much by attempting to make sure that everyone else was taken care of, had everything that they needed, and guess what happened? In the midst of ensuring all of that, something was forgotten, something very important. Do you know what that one, very important thing is...MYSELF. I forgot myself, I placed myself on the back burner. How silly does that sound? I have to live in my body the rest of my life and hopefully I have many decades to go. My body is my temple and yet I have neglected it. So for this example I will call this 'thing' my 'IT'..."Care-Taking".

Care taking for me was something I thought that I was doing intentionally, however I came to the realization that it was most often times something that I was doing without even realizing it. Now you may be thinking "care-taking" is a good (I use this word lightly) characteristic trait to have, however, it had become detrimental to me. I grew to realize in the last several weeks that there are two different things that exists which names are quite similar. Care taking and care giving. I was doing the former. The former was stemmed from my deep desires to control, be the fixer, be acknowledged, among other things. I now can actually place intention, what I thought I had been doing, on the activity to care GIVE. See with "care-giving", I set boundaries to not overextend myself, I assist instead of trying to be that "one", I am aware that I cannot fix other's problems, although I can offer assistance.

I was able to come to that awareness by listening to me, the thing that I was not speaking aloud with words but was saying loud and clear with my mind, body and spirit. I took a moment to "check out". I closed down temporarily to allow myself to get acquainted with my new findings. I did this to allow myself to not have distractions which could cause me to not put as much into my spiritual awakening that is needed. This ish is serious to me. Lol. I would describe the feeling I receive from this type of awareness as an enlightment. Enlightment to me feels like a mellow high. It feels oh so good! I invite each of you who are not yet using this method to begin trying it. I have not laid out all of the steps for you and all the tools that I have began using for myself, because this isnt that. I dont have the answers. I am simply taking the time to reflect. As you continue to read along with my blog then things will begin to become clear. I am inviting you on this journey as we uncover things about ourself that may very well connect us without knowing. You may not have the same story as me, but we each have a story indeed. Take regular opportunities to "close for spiritual maintenance". If you are like me, you will be surprised at what you learn about yourself.

XOXO,

G