Birthday Behavior

Hi, everyone. Im G! Some of you may know me and hopefully there will be some readers who actually do not know me at all, but have still decided to join me on this journey as I dive into Her InnerG™.

I have chosen to title my brand new Blog Website “thingamajig”, ‘Her InnerG™’, and the premier is on my birthday which is today. I am beyond excited on what this new journey for me will entail. This blog will cover all the random things about me. Warning: My thoughts are pretty sporadic. I will use it as a tool to look back and read what Ive posted in an attempt to become more aware of my true self. So there’s the quick introduction of what I hope to offer, youll learn more about what the title means to me in future, upcoming posts. Lets get into a brief intro blog post.

Ill tell you what. I have learned quite a few things since my last birthday. Oh, yea, by the way I have just entered into my 32nd year of life…hold up, *begins counting* so that makes me 31 on today, right? *shrugs shoulders*. I had originally planned to write a post about ‘Who or What I am’ or something like that BUT on today I thought it befitting to write a post on things that I have somewhat observed on my actual birthday this year.

Trapp Jazz Event for G's Birthday (G is on top, left in the photo)

So, I have never written a blog or anything like this, but here goes…

1. I am supported and loved. I have realized that I have far more support from those that love me than I actually realized that I did. I have a tribe of people who will be there for me whenever and for whatever I need, all I have to do is ask. See for me, it always been hard to ask for what I want because I fear rejection and the feeling I get from being let down, having false hope and expectations and the likes. But its ok. I may not get everything that I ask for but Ill get nothing of what I don’t ask for, so the former appears to be the most beneficial choice.

2. My birthday is special to me. In previous years my birthday really was just another day for me. I would go to work, not make a big deal about it and even attempt at keeping it hush-hush. But never again! Today is a wonderful day to celebrate myself. It is just fairly recently that I have chosen to start choosing ME 1st above all else! No one else ever made a big deal out of this day because I never did so. And the truth of the matter is, I really want to celebrate this occasion. I want this one day to be special for me.

3. I want surprise gifts. Piggy backing off the previous number, I found it hard to ask anyone for anything. I would put my wants aside and always do for others, even when that left me not receiving what it was I wanted. It was quite a delight to see others receive what they need and want and I be the one giving. That’s really good, however, not when it tampers with my emotions afterwards. I would began to feel so sad when I would have to say no to myself because either financially, time-wise, physically, or mentally I could not afford whatever it was that I wanted at that time. Friends and family would often times ask me what I wanted for my birthday and I would respond “nothing”, “Im ok, really”. Or “I don’t know”. It was because I truly didn’t know. After all that time of learning what others may like as a surprise gift, I lost my desires. But this year, when I was asked that question, although I started with the same response, I decided to do things differently and actually think on that question. I began coming up with a whole list of things. I even became semi embarrassed at how much I kept adding to the list as I was talking to my friend, lol.

4. The day is what you make of it. I had decided to take off for my birthday this year and requested to be off a month or so ahead of time. I was granted to be off, but then 2 days before my bday, I received a text stating that I have to come into to work because my coverage person is sick. Well, that really threw a damper into things. My entire day was planned for celebratory events. I was livid. I wake up the next day only to some more terrible news which left me working by myself for a few hours during my shift. A friend told me to find joy in my day in any way that I could because the Venus Retrograde was out here snatching folks happiness. Lol. I said “I wish a _____ would”. (Fill in the blank as you wish) J I grasped a hold of my happiness and tried to hold onto it tight. Afterall, I am the only creator of it. Happiness and I stood tall and although the day got real hectic, I was at peace. I got off work and I pushed myself to go out and party, even though I knew I would be tired the next day. See I now had to come into work on my birthday. I get to work…on my birthday, making an attempt at faux happiness, which didn’t work by the way, and there I was able to express to my partner my dismay. As she listened to me groan, not being ugly to her or anything, I eventually lightened up. She even suggested that I leave work or at least accept her offer to work for me the next day so that I could use that day as a substitute to enjoy my birthday in post bday events. I so appreciate that from her.

So, that sums up a few points of what I learned or shall I say observed about myself on my actual birthday. To say the least, I am tired, exhausted and excited about my future post bday plans. I cannot wait to get off work tonight. Im publishing my Blog later than I had expected, but since Im at work…hey, work with what ya got, ya know? I hope that you enjoyed reading my first blog share. Please like and share the page. Let me know what you think and if you could relate to any of it. I thank you in advance.

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XOXO,

G